I’ll be standing alone, hiding in plain sight. Wearing a cloak that covers my face, I hide my identity from the others. Mysteries follow in every step I take. I conceal what is really underneath keeping the shadows from consuming the others around me.
Sometimes, I disappear. I sit there quietly. Just listening. I hear people laughing, I hear people talking, but unlike them, I don’t say a word. They don’t say anything to me, so I eventually I feel like the person in the cloak. I would know everybody around me, but they wouldn’t know a single thing about me. I would hear their conversations and think about how different our lives are. They don’t know what’s going on in my life and sometimes I want to keep it like that. There are problems and struggles that I keep bottled up inside, but it gets to the point where it is going to explode. It’s just too hard to talk about. I just want to transform into a bird and fly away from all of it. No need for the stress or the pain.
The people I see, the things I hear… sometimes I would want to have the invisibility cloak, so I could wander around all by myself and no one would know I was there.
“Sometimes I wish I could disappear. To escape from everything around me.” – Joanna | I’m Not A Xue
I’ve had too many times where I’ve given someone my trust and they’ve just grabbed it, threw it, and it shattered into a million pieces. They probably didn’t know what they did emotionally to me back then, but overall, I’ve gotten over it. It’s like a leech. Sitting there, sucking the blood out of your body, but you can’t manage to get rid of it. It’s still there. How hard I try, it’s still there. There’s no way to get rid of it. We just have to deal with it. It’ll take time, but it’ll fade away.
“We must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.” – Albus Dumbledore.
As the cloak consumes me in darkness, I can see an opening. The light shines through the shadows and breaks away the tears. The rays shine through the tears and show the rainbow to somewhere far away.
Even though there are complications at every corner, it doesn’t mean we have to fall every time. We can do what we love, what makes us happy, and what feels important. We can be whatever we want to be, it just may not be as easy as it seems to find it.
“We didn’t set out to be superheroes. But, sometimes, life doesn’t go the way you planned. The good thing is, my brother wanted to help a lot of people. That’s what we’re gonna do! Who are we?” – Hiro Hamada